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PostPosted: Fri May 20, 2005 10:21 pm 
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Ever been in love?


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PostPosted: Fri May 20, 2005 11:11 pm 
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Interesting place to ask this question, DM.
You mean with a person, or a spirit, or a diety? Perhaps a cute widdle puppy?

Oh, and yes, on all the above.

I sense trouble in your emotional life.

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PostPosted: Sat May 21, 2005 1:18 am 
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Love is a battlefield.

Yes, I was in love w. a beautiful girl once, but, alas, it did not last.

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PostPosted: Sat May 21, 2005 6:55 am 
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Falling in love? Easy! Getting the girl to fall in love with me? Impossible!!

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PostPosted: Sat May 21, 2005 3:25 pm 
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Stop trying-- seriously.
Then all of a sudden.... everything happens.
I am not joking.

Just be yourself, and confident in yourself, and
suddenly.... you catch them.

That's when you take out the manacles and...


...i've said too much. :oops:


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PostPosted: Sun May 22, 2005 6:19 am 
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jerikai wrote:
Stop trying-- seriously.
Then all of a sudden.... everything happens.
I am not joking.

Just be yourself, and confident in yourself, and
suddenly.... you catch them.


OUCH! Yup, sure is, but WHAT/WHOM do you catch?

Mine was a (then) not recovered drug addict (unknown to me), alcoholic (also unknown to me), and a survivor of childhood incest (also known to me).

After 3 years of hell, he detox'ed. The alcoholism he did get under control, at that same time. The being a survivor of childhood incest wrecked his entire life, and mine, daily, weekly, monthly, yearly, but I believed it was really "for better or for worse," and cared, and was, at that point, content.

13 years later, he went ballistic, wild, into S & M, wretched things, was gone 5 out of 7 days per week, and the hell that broke out then made the first 3 years look like a kids game.

Then, he left, exactly on our 15th anniversary.

Later, I realized it was the best thing he ever did for me, or to me, to LEAVE.

However, 6 months later, I was diagnosed with HIV.

3 brief upstarts since then, that didn't work out, I am now way far more particular.

Just this week, I veto'ed 2 potentials.

Both are still involved with someone else.

Both have way too negative an attitude for me.

One does not believe in safe sex between two HIV poz people. (WRONG!)

One does not volunteer his HIV status to potentials unless they ask. (VERY WRONG!)

Lord have mercy! I'd rather STAY SINGLE, be ALONE for ALL of my LIFE than get TANGLED in THAT! :roll:


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PostPosted: Sun May 22, 2005 6:49 pm 
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gwmRNpozSC wrote:

Lord have mercy! I'd rather STAY SINGLE, be ALONE for ALL of my LIFE than get TANGLED in THAT! :roll:


Amen to that!

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PostPosted: Sun May 22, 2005 11:03 pm 
Amen. Infatuation is fun though. So is fantasizing. It's cheaper to fantasize, and there's no tipping.


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PostPosted: Sun May 22, 2005 11:09 pm 
gwmRNpozSC wrote:
jerikai wrote:
Stop trying-- seriously.
Then all of a sudden.... everything happens.
I am not joking.

Just be yourself, and confident in yourself, and
suddenly.... you catch them.


OUCH! Yup, sure is, but WHAT/WHOM do you catch?

Mine was a (then) not recovered drug addict (unknown to me), alcoholic (also unknown to me), and a survivor of childhood incest (also known to me).

After 3 years of hell, he detox'ed. The alcoholism he did get under control, at that same time. The being a survivor of childhood incest wrecked his entire life, and mine, daily, weekly, monthly, yearly, but I believed it was really "for better or for worse," and cared, and was, at that point, content.

13 years later, he went ballistic, wild, into S & M, wretched things, was gone 5 out of 7 days per week, and the hell that broke out then made the first 3 years look like a kids game.

Then, he left, exactly on our 15th anniversary.

Later, I realized it was the best thing he ever did for me, or to me, to LEAVE.

However, 6 months later, I was diagnosed with HIV.

3 brief upstarts since then, that didn't work out, I am now way far more particular.

Just this week, I veto'ed 2 potentials.

Both are still involved with someone else.

Both have way too negative an attitude for me.

One does not believe in safe sex between two HIV poz people. (WRONG!)

One does not volunteer his HIV status to potentials unless they ask. (VERY WRONG!)

Lord have mercy! I'd rather STAY SINGLE, be ALONE for ALL of my LIFE than get TANGLED in THAT! :roll:


Ouch. I'll never complain about my life again. Except when I open a can of "Solid White Tuna" and there are little pieces of pasty unidentifiable tuna scraps mixed in that look like they just scraped them off the floor of the packing plant. I hate that.


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 Post subject: Re: Love
PostPosted: Sun May 22, 2005 11:10 pm 
dark matter wrote:
Ever been in love?


Yes. But in retrospect, no. I was only fooling myself.


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PostPosted: Mon May 23, 2005 3:29 pm 
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Wow, some great and heart felt replies. I posted this when I was alittle drunk. Something I seldom do.

Yes, I am having an internal arguement right now. Part of me is saying I love this women, my head is telling me I am so dumb and shooting myself in the foot. I am torn in two directions. My head is telling me she is a klonpin addicted, drinks toomuch, is completely irresponible, is and is histronic. My heart is saying "she makes your sullen ass laugh".

I feel like such an idiot. I think I should just goto star wars 5 days a week to forget about the situation.


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PostPosted: Mon May 23, 2005 3:32 pm 
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STD...
it's easy as
123
I'm tellin ya
STD
Doe Rae Me
123 baby, you and me ! :lol:

Gawd I'm silly sometimes :oops:

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PostPosted: Mon May 23, 2005 4:11 pm 
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Try being in obsessive uncontrolled lust - - mistaken for Love. Love is about caring and protection - - this was not Love.

You can wonder why some people do things they normally wouldn't - - - until you experience this phenomenon.

DANGEROUS!!!!! Is all I can say - - thankfully I survived it - - and got out of it.

I don't know why my life seems to have touched on the fringes of just about everything - - - kind of like enough to have the experience - - - but I am removed from it before I go over the edge.

Love is something else - and work to keep it going - just celebrated my 12th wedding anniversary.

Got to say - - when that "new" lust subsides - - you better have a common goal to work toward.

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